I am a scaredy cat...

I wish it weren't true.. but, I believe this is my biggest weakness when it comes to playing poker..... it serves me well, when I have a healthy chip stack...but, more often than not, I find myself with average chips, and folding A9s to a small raise.... even folding KQo to all ins..... just trying to squeak in the top 3.... settle for 3rd I tell myself, almost double your buyin....... sigh...

SNG's no longer give me the pleasure they once did... i.e., I don't win nor finish ITM as much as I used to....played 4 last night...

2 X $5+.50 1 first($25) 1 bubble
1 X $10+1.00 bubble
1 X $20+2.00 second($60)

so we do some quick math, and find that I came out ahead $48.50. Not bad for a couple hours of play... also managed to FINALLY finish off my bonus... good God that took forever... even came out a couple regular dollars ahead, to make the 25NL session +6 or so ( had $4.15 left on bonus ). This means, if I get the nerve to play more ring games.. I can not use the excuse 'i folded my QQ cuz I am just working off my bonus'. This may bode well for me.. hell, I even called a 5 dollar raise ( I was up 10 bucks ), but my AJs didn't look good with a board of KQQ, none of my suit, and a $22.00 all in.... just didn't seem worth it...besides, I was just working off my bonus....

I discovered my afearedness, couple days ago... came to me like one of those light bulb moments.. a revelation, I think they call it.... and since then, have been using freerolls to play less timid...play more hands that look good...suited connects and such... so, slowly but surely, I am putting more value on certain cards, based on pot size, chip stack, positioin, and behavior of opponents.... I actually think that I used to do this.. and somehow, stopped... I mean for christ sake, in november, when I began with real money, I dropped $400 faster than Jackie Smith can drop a football in the end zone during a superbowl... AND THEN, won it all back, doing something right...in December..

My strategy is to be one of the final 6, with an average chip stack, from there, its usually gravy...., until UB goes and ups the starting chips, 1k to 1.5k, and now, everyone is in til like round 5 and I'm screwed... heh...

I am just sorta rambling by the way....you know, sorta like how a tumbleweed meaders it way around, not really leaving an impression anywhere.....

I got to sit close to April, on a low buy in NL table, .01/.02 I think, $2 max buyin... donated my 2 bucks to her cause, whichever cause she may have.. just glad it was her... I really didn't want to play there so much as I just wanted to play with a fellow blogger... we went all in together, was a couple days ago... think she beat my top pair with a straight....

Starluck paid me off good... casino bonus whoring is not so bad... time consuming... I hit quad 2's, 3's, and then a straight flush, to put me at $217, and pretty much finished my wagering requirement.. then blew about 40 bucks or so, messing with the other games..... Planetluck was started last night... going fairly well.. should clear that bonus before the end of next week....oh, hitting a straight flush, video poker, betting $1, paid 100 to 1, I about peed myself... well, ok, I did... the quads each paid 50 to 1, but, I was only betting .50 at that time.... $25 each... that is when I switched back to a buck bet....

If this works out, I should have enuff money to make it to the WPBT Event, Vegas in June, BABY!!!!!

Ok, that is enuff rambling for now...